too heavy

I hate this situation!! It comes 2 times for me :-(
God where r u? why you do it for me? I'm not a strong girl as You think before
sebenernya kenapa jadi ginisih? gue salah banget? iya, gue salah.
gue cuma pengen berada di tengah2 kalian, bisa jadi A dan jadi B, apa itu salah?
gue cuma pengen nyeimbangin kalian.
tetapi kenapa kalian selalu mempersalahkan itu sih?
sebenernya kenapa gue gaboleh berdiri di antara kalian? I love you both.
hey! why you mad to me? bukannnya lo dulu selalu ada di pihak gue? katanya sahabat gue? hah
gue males
satu persatu pun bakal pergi dari gue, semua yg sayang sama gue pergi gitu aja
memang semuanya ga ada yang abadi
tapi kenapasih di saat lagi bahagia22nya malah ada aja masalah yang ngerenggangin kita
last night. I know what you felt at all, but you? did you know? did you want to know?
even, did you ask it for me? maybe 'how are you?' or 'are you okay?' ? did you do it?
oke cukup, ini mungkin agak berlebihan. gue ga pantes minta itu semua.

"do not be someone who always want to be understood, but you have to understand the other at first"

"stop judging anyone, just seeing at yourself first"

"friends are people who will come to you whenever you tell them that you need them, 

but a bestfriend is someone who will come to you when s/he look at your face and know that there is something wrong before you tell him/her"

"don't ever hurt your besfriend before he/she go away from you"